I believe it is time I share a little something with the world. In the year 2006 I met an interesting girl on the set of a Fall Out Boy video. She was beyond the point of obsessed but was under the dementia that she was actually good friends with the band. This girl's name was Amanda. Now, my frind Jamie and I also met that night and she shared with me a little bit of Amanda's true psychosis. Aparently Amanda was madly in love with the lead singer Patrick Stump (step off bitch!) and she was ready to confess this undying love to the man himself. She wrote up a brilliant letter and gave it to Jamie to give to Mr. Stump at the next concert. Of course, after reading the letter, Jamie wanted nothing to do with it and in the end Amanda actually gave it to him herself but not before Jamie shared it with me. Now it is time to share it with the world. You have been warned.
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dear patrick,
theres a ton of things i would like to say to you, one being your the most amazing guy i've ever met in my entire life, and i've met a lot of guys before. I've met band members also and you seem to be the most down to earth guy that i've ever met in a band, but that can always change since you're in a band and i know how assholes can form, but i think you're different than that because of your personality and how you act towards people. I remember the first time i saw you at the House of Blues back with Mest, those days you guys would just walk up the street and not get mobbed, since everyone was oogling about Mest back then My second memory would have to be the Hollywood Palladium with Taking Back Sunday and Matchbook Romance, again you guys could just walk up the street and not even get mobbed. I remember going into Coffee Bean to use the bathroom and I saw you just sitting there, and I'm like to my self that is, thats patrick from fall out boy should i bug him or should i not? i decieded not to because i'm a shy person, like yourself. Let me think of what else I can say, you may think of me as an obsessed fan maybe? I'm not. I love Fall Out Boy to death, and if I was obsessed I'd be at every show possible and be there days and days a head of time. Number two memory would have to be both the House of Blues shows with Gym Class Heros, The Academy is and so forth. I remember being the first person at the show and talking to Pete and then later that night at the meet n greet, again thats another experience i've had when you have never been rude to me at all. Both those nights were amazing and I wish I could go back and tell you a lot of things that went through my head those days. The next and final memory that i can think of since I have a bad memory, was at Warped Tour when I had the chance to watch you guys from Onstage, what can I say? the crowd is better but being on stage made me feel like I was your guardian angel making sure you didn't get hurt or no one tried to attack you, it may sound weird coming from someone you dont know but Its true. This letter.. I dont know what you're going to think about it, but I've waited to long and this has been sitting in my room for a long time now. If you forgot who I am, I'm Amanda.. the girl that always gives you guys gifts and shows, etc. Warped Tour the $100 gift card to best buy, david bowie merch, and dvds and what not. The main reason I guess I'm writing you is.. I like you.. I have this place in my heart that doesn't know what it is, it can't be love because I dont know you, and you dont know me. I just know that you're the type of guy no one can ever find in this world, the type of guy that seems considerate, nice, and caring even though he's on the road all the time. If I had that chance I think I would be the happiest girl alive, but what am I thinking? rock stars dont date fans, they date "scene" girls and "model" types as far as what I can see. I was going to tell you and hand this to you at warped or even kimmel since it's been a long time since I wrote this, but I couldn't because at kimmel i saw you were your girlfriend? I'm not sure if she was your girlfriend, but I dont like getting into people's personal lives anymore, i did that with Andy your wonderful drummer, and i fucked up his trust with me probably. He said at the video shoot we were cool, but i still have that lightning bolt over my head ready to strict if i do anymore shit towards you guys that could fuck things up with ex girlfriends, friends, etc. I don't even know if its late enough for us to become even friends, but I know I would never have that chance with you. You're probably not wanting a relationship right now anyways since you're on the road a lot, but i've seen band members date fans before. Like i said, what am I thinking? an amazing guy... a regular unattractive girl? how would that ever mesh? There's nights and days where I dont think i'll ever be happy in life, and i just to break my straight edge and over dose on sleeping pills. Not because i dont think i can have a chance with you, its because my life has been shitty and i guess whenever i hear your voice or hear fall out boy i'm like who cares if i can ever have a chance with Patrick Stump? They know whose been supporting them this whole time, and they know who will be there until the day they break up. So yeah um, the video shoot was amazing, I had to add that in this long letter. I heard you were sleeping in the trailer most of the time, but I'm glad I got to see you and chat for a bit. I can't wait until the Black Cloud and Underdogs tour, my friend is probably going to deliver this to you since she knows your old merch guy Jordan and she may be getting guestlisted so I'm hoping you'll get this soon. If you have a girlfriend, she's the luckiest girl in the world.. because you're the most amazing guy i've ever met before, not just because you sing and play guitar in fall out boy. You're just over-all a fucking amazing, sweetest, goregeous man I've ever met in my entire life, despite all the shittyness and stuff I've been through in my life. Don't tell Charlie that I'm a stalker or anything, because I'm not.. to be honest I dont camp out at shows anymore, or get there really early. I just like seeing you and if we run into eachother, we run into eachother. If we dont, we dont, i just know that i ever had that chance as your girlfriend or one date I wouldn't even accuse you of cheating since I'm a very respectful person, and i would be patient when you were on the road. If i had the chance to go on tour with you guys just as a friend, not a girlfriend, or date I would be nice to the fans and make sure all of you guys are safe.
What else can I say? I think I pretty much summed up everything in this letter. Below is how my life has been, I've never been in a relationship, guys treat me like shit because I'm obese, in my eyes fat. I'm called stupid, ugly, stalker, whatever. I just know how much I care about your safety, petes, andys, and joes and they're some scary fans out there that think they'll marry you, be with you, think they're already with you, but I'm not like that.. I'm just a hopeful, thinking that the 21 year old from Chicago will be satisfied in life, even though he has already gained so much since day one.
This is a writing that I wrote about someone I felt for, not you but if you could show Pete this I would really appreciate it, I know he writes like this sometime so I know he'll love it! I'm not leaving any numbers, e-mail addresses, or anything i just hope you read it infront of my friend and let her know what you thought, or how you feel.. not like you'll feel anything but I'm hopeful that you'll at least appreciate me taking the time to do this for you. Have a wonderful tour! And I'll see you soon
Amanda &#*$^)(#&
sometimes i dream of you, and i know that it won't happen. at least for awhile. but it makes it that much better. when the snow falls down i end up watching it for days at a time. it's like god is crying, only it's beautiful. am i beautiful when i cry? how i see myself is different than how i see you. i've looked in the mirror and seen an empty heart. fill it for me. 'a dream is a wish your heart makes,' then i've wished too long and i should just give up. throw it out the front door. trash it. 'when your fast asleep.' do i ever really sleep anymore? i want to dream of you. take you in. breathe. feel.
i've found out some things today that i really didn't want to know. and i remembered the promises we've made. and i entend to keep them. "we'll see about that." oh we will. i will. it'll be me and you. to the end. dancing in the snow covered streets, watching the stars shine above us, and feeling true loves first kiss. but alas, these dreams are only dreams.
forget. forget this. forget everything but me.
my wishes for this year will come for your beady little eyes. and your beating hearts.
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I will take thanks in the form of money, starbucks, or kittens. I hope to god that she never comes on this site. I haven't seen her in person lately but I constantly see her in the background of making the video pics and live performances. A word of warning Patrick Stump: stop being so delectible.
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